Blog Post #2: About Me, a Certified English Nerd
With all of this talk about reading, we have to acknowledge another key aspect of the field: writing. This relationship is a bit more complicated for me, as I'm sure it is for many others. While I have always been told that I am a strong writer, and have received many praises on papers over the years, writing has also always been tied to some less positive feelings for me, such as anxiety. I always felt like my writing had to be absolutely perfect and would take criticism as a direct attack on my character. I don't think I will ever completely shake the perfectionist inside of me that comes out of me when I open up Microsoft Word, but I have learned over the years to treat myself with more kindness, and remember that mistakes are a part of learning and growing. I hope for my students to follow this path of grace and understanding, rather than fall into the intense pit of pressure that I think many young/developing writers find themselves in (I surely did). While writing is extremely personal, it is never going to be perfect, and that's okay. We are so much more than our grades and the red ink we receive on our papers.
Given that the pandemic hit right around when I decided to make the switch to education, I do not have the direct experience in a secondary English classroom that I wish I did. However, I have had many experiences revising my friends' and peers' writing, and I am always willing to be a second pair of eyes on someone's work. While I do occasionally need to hit up google to refresh my memory on commas and little tricks like "who vs. whom," I do have a solid grasp on grammar. However, I have a particular interest in focusing on aspects of writing like structure, organization, and flow since I think they are much more instrumental to a writer's effectiveness and the writing's purpose than "smaller" things like capitalization and punctuation.
Outside of my "academic" self, I like to read (shocker!!), paint, cook, listen to music, watch TV/movies, and spend time with friends and family. Some of my favorite musicians are Taylor Swift, Harry Styles, Wallows, and The Lumineers, and some movies I never seem to get tired of watching are Emma (2020), 13 Going on 30, La La Land, and Coco.
Here is a "literacy selfie" I made to give you an idea of writers who inspire me, books that have shaped my relationship with reading, and quotes that I don't think will ever leave me:
Hi Kelly! I had a very similar experience with writing that you describe. I always did pretty well in English classes in grade/high school, but I'll never forget writing my first essay for my freshman year English class at Marquette. I thought I nailed it, but when I got it back, it was FILLED with comments/edits and the grade was way less than I expected. That experience opened my eyes and made me nitpick everything I wrote. I took those comments personally, even though it was my professor's way of helping me improve. This is a very relatable feeling that is good to keep in mind for your future students! -Elizabeth
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ReplyDeleteI am also in the same boat as you for our beginning of being an English Ed major so a lot of my friends also send their papers over to me every so often for me to look over and edit! It is always so helpful to have a second pair of eyes on a paper, especially if you are not exactly sure if you are doing the paper correctly and know another person can give feedback on it. I think this is especially helpful for those who do get anxiety when they have to do anything revolving around an essay. There are so many people who feel very self conscious with their writing and I hope to help fix that in some way!
Hi Kelly,
ReplyDeleteI also deal with writing anxiety and frequently hold off on writing papers because the prospect of "getting it wrong" or starting off on the wrong track scares too much. I think this is partly because I was overpraised by some teachers and relatives in the past which led me to believe that my writing skills were unassailable. I would never say this out loud, but I this is what I thought in my head. So I've also had to readjust my attitude towards criticism of my writing. I'm so glad I no longer tie my sense of self-worth to my writing.
Kelly! Hey, I really liked your literary selfie mashup, we had some similar stuff. James Baldwin is great. Jane Eyre is one of my favorites. And that Jane Austen meme was top notch! Thank you for sharing about yourself and your experiences. "We are so much more than our grades and the red ink we receive on our papers" — YES! I've definitely felt that perfectionism and writing anxiety too. Honored to be in some more courses with you this semester. I just know you are going to make an amazing ELA teacher.
ReplyDeleteThis was Paul, btw. :) Noticed it left my name off for some reason.
DeleteI appreciate your generosity in sharing your complicated journey and relationship with writing. I think that you will find this to be a benefit moving forward as you work with more and more writers.
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